In recent weeks and months, I've been a target of several people and organizations who's defamed me, made up multiple lies about me and has pushed it too far to the point where my girlfriend, Amy, of 3 years, committed suicide because she was cyberbullied by similar or the same people that has been targeting me as of late, and eventually, it will get to the point where I may end up committing suicide.
With that said, I'm meeting someone next week to discuss further plans to check into a inpatient trauma recovery program at the LGBTIQQA+ unit within Brattleboro Retreat, and other plans for surgeries as well so that I don't have to suffer from Gender Dysphoria anymore. But what does this mean for my music career? Well, three things, actually:
- First, I want to let you all know that I love all of you, my friends, my fans and my community. What they've done to me is unforgivable, and I don't want to end up like Chester Bennington, so I'm gonna try to fight this for as long as I can before it's too late.
- Secondly, this will temporarily delay my plans to tour and to release new music this summer/fall 2019, but I will be back on the road and back in the studio by mid to late Summer, hopefully just in time for October.
- Thirdly and finally, I am so severely depressed, so traumatized and haunted to the point where I can barely hold on anymore, and I'm afraid it will end my life, so I need to step away from the world, the internet and social media for a while for a self-care hiatus/break then return fully rejuvenated and well again to resume my plans to finish what I started in my music career.
Please don't give up on me, even when my armor breaks. You're my battle symphony. I love you all. See you soon.
October Rain Evans.